A letter to 16 year old me

Dear 16 year old self,

I would like to apologize in advance because you are not a doctor! Surprise, surprise.

I have so many things to tell you and there are so many things that I wish you knew what I know now because it would make your life much easier. If I could take guess, at this point of time, you are probably crushing over someone and get your heart broken every now over that person. I wish I could go there and hug you and tell that everything is going to be alright. Those bad times, it will pass. It is completely normal to feel this way. Years, and years after now.. you are going to realize that all those tears, those sleeps that you lost over a boy that you are so sure that you are going to spend the rest of your life with, it won’t matter. I can promise you that.

I was reading your blog and I now know how strong you can be. I am sorry that you have to deal with those feelings, I know you don’t want to feel that way but I can assure you that it will be okay. Don’t regret your decisions because somehow, I am doing okay now. Those bad decisions that you did or you are about to do, let them be life lessons. You will learn and grow wiser. All you need to do is be patient.

For the next coming 4-5 years, you will learn how many times can you break before you shatter. I am not kidding about the sleepless nights that you are gonna have but trust me, it is going to be worth it because hey, I have a good news for you.. I am engaged now and getting married to the love of my life in four months! You will meet him in 7 years and you will realize why it never worked out with everyone else.

When it comes to your friends, you will be surprised that the people that you have breaks with every single day, will drift apart, just a year after high school finish. It’s not your fault and it’s not their fault. Changes are inevitable. Some things can be controlled, but life will happen. You will only stay friends with a small fraction of them and you are gonna meet new, wonderful people along the way and they are going to learn many things. You will become close with someone you’ve drifted apart, you will drift apart from someone you are really close with but fret not, new friends, old friends.. both are equally awesome.

There are so many things that I wish you knew by now but I am not going to ruin the surprise for you. I hope you can stay strong and do whatever that makes you happy. Because I am happy now. So whatever decisions you are about to do, you are gonna be alright, kid. Til the next time.